Can you ever have a second first time?
Josh Carver thinks it’s just another lunch with his best friend, Michael—until Michael confesses he just turned down a date with his hot veterinarian crush. It seems Michael’s abusive ex left him more scarred than Josh realized.
Josh and his husband, Ian, have done their best to help Michael leave his horrific past behind, but even Josh is stunned when Ian suggests that Josh help Michael with his fear of physical intimacy. After all, it isn’t like it would be the first time—Josh and Michael were once each other’s firsts.
A hesitant first kiss, and Josh and Michael’s natural attraction eases the way. But with Michael still balking at the prospect of sex with someone new, Ian steps into the breach.
Everything is fine and dandy until emotions become so entangled, their friendship—and a marriage—could be at risk.
Warning: Contains three guys who will do anything for each other, a hot tub that’s always the right temperature, and a cat with an attitude problem.
Wow. So – we start with Michael and he’s 5 years out of a HORRIBLE relationship where he is horrifically abused to the point that he’s got Stockholm Syndrome. He’s in therapy but he’s having trouble getting over the hurdle of sexual intimacy.
Michael and Josh have been friends forever and on again/off again lovers in the past. Michael shares his problem – not being able to date anymore because he can’t bear the thought of intimacy. Josh is crushed. He’s always known Michael as a very sensuous person with a high libido. He can’t stand the idea of Michael being trapped and alone due to the a-hole ex.
Josh is married to Ian (for 10 years now) and Ian is awesome. Ian hears the tale about Michael and suggests that since Michael trusts Josh – why doesn’t Josh try to get Michael out of his sexual slump.
So it starts. And it works. But it has a cost. Eventually – after some interesting and open conversations – it’s decided in invite Ian in (because Michael needs to experience someone NOT Josh, to test if he’s ready) and the chemistry is so good….
Luckily, our trio navigates some very tricky waters and we have a very nice HFN that looks to be a HEA.
So I’m very torn here. I really, really loved (and bought in) to most of this book. God! It was so horrible seeing the stuff Michael endured and Josh and he are clearly so good for one another and it was amazing how well LA Witt was able to guide them through the terrible PTSD and make it believable and touching and yet sexy too.
I also loved Ian. I totally bought into his caring for Michael, his devotion to Josh, his relationship with Josh and thought he and Josh had some amazingly hot sex.
I EVEN bought into the ménage aspect of the relationship. The chemistry is very obvious and though it maybe moved a bit quickly based on the slowness of the rest of the book, I still bought in.
However – my stumbling block is the final chapter. I wanted them to form a relationship, I think they might be able to do so. But – we NEVER saw them function together in any way other than sexually and so I can’t KNOW they will make it.
If I had a wish it’d be that the author gave us a few less sex scenes (there are a LOT) and some more relationship building between the three characters. As it stands I feel they are left on shaky ground and unless there is a sequel I can’t feel super great about it.
But… I did like 90% of the book and thought the touching way the abuse/recovery was handled was amazing and the smexy times were really hot!
So… 4.5 of 5 stars