No matter what he tells himself, wealthy NYC architect Liam has never been able to forget his first love, Ben. But as he approaches midlife and realizes something is missing, can he forgive himself for the worst mistake he ever made—the one that left a hole no amount of career success can fill? Or will fear keep him from the full life he really wants?
Liam and Ben were childhood sweethearts, then college boyfriends. But when Liam cheated on Ben, Ben forced himself to cut ties and move on. He’s still living in the small town where they grew up, teaching, but it’s not the life he imagined for himself as a younger man. Still, when Liam returns, he can’t risk his heart again. He certainly can’t allow himself to love Liam again after fighting so hard to get over him.
Neither man wants to let go of the past and face their apprehension at starting over. They don’t want to fall in love a second time—but sometimes love happens whether it’s wanted or not
Essentially this story is about Liam who in all intents and purposes is pining after Ben. It’s not really spelt out like that in the story, more my impression of it. Liam has everything rising career, money, mixes with the rich and famous but no one to share it with or any good solid friends. Liam can’t understand (or doesn’t want to try) why he is drawn back to his childhood town. Except Ben still lives there and so does his other friend Seth. When he messed up his relationship with Ben he also lost Seth‘s respect and friendship. Equally Ben is resisting his attraction and the pull towards Liam. He doesn’t want to get hurt again. This is a well written story. There was enough going on in the mild emotional turmoil and the machiavellian antics of Ben’s Uncle Calvin to keep me glued to the story. Anything less and I would’ve been shouting get on with it already. But that never happened. Liam is quite a self centred character whilst Ben is a caring soul. It has taken Liam a long time to realise all that glitters is not gold and he left to golden opportunity far behind chasing dreams and ambition. How they fare in the future I don’t know but they seem to be soulmates, so I’ll hope for the best. The epilogue feels more like a happy for now ending but they have good family and friends around them.
4 of stars out of 5